Hello, I'm engaged to an police officer, due to be married this year. I don't know if I'm being selfish but, I just feel so alone and disconnected from him. We have 2 children, both boys, 5 and 3. 
I always feel like we come 3rd place, work, gym then us and whenever I try to explain how lonely I feel I'm met with well I'll just quit then. (Doesn't mean it). And you knew I wanted to be a police officer. Yes I was aware of the career path but what I wasn't aware of is how little time me and the kids would get to spend with him. He's always tired, always grumpy and just over all not the person I committed myself too. 

So my question is does it get better? Or will it be a marriage of lonelyness and being a single married parent?