Hey there My Sisters!

so ...... my Prince Charming is Alcohol " free" for about 90 days ( with one Doosey of a relapse day about 1/2 in).

im sad to report that things are NOT better ( except for the absence of holes in walls, broken furniture,etc due to drunken blundering). He is still using benzo tranquilizers .... which make him irritable, nasty, remote, confused and stupid- ugh ( believe me, if they made him tranquil, I'd give them to him myself! Ugh ).

the night before last I'm am woken by a phone ringing at 12:15 am.... turns out that for some reason my AH thought he received am email stating he had to change his passwords to our 401 account. Being a technological nitwit with NO short term memory and anger management issues.... well you can imagine. I usually try not to rescue, but felt that he was screwing with OUR financial security, so I got up and solved the problem.

the next day was hell. During our "discussion" ( although he admitted he was a mean nasty man with a superiority entitlement ) he told me that our marriage was damaged beyond repairing because of me. He said this: " Friday is Valentines Day, and I didn't even get you any shit! Ya know why? Because I JUST DONT CARE!" ( this morning after a doctor appointment he walked in with two huge bouquets of roses and literally shoved them at me, no kind words, OMG he is so pathetically miserable. ) 

Anyway, I refuse to lower myself to his level.... two years ago I bought him a valentine card ( generic, no lovey message, a pop up one w no room to write.... I saved it and used it last year..... I saved it and will reuse it tomorrow. I will pick up some lottery tickets- because if he wins- I win.

Sending