Wives of Alcoholics Community Group
A forum of healing and help for wives of alcoholics.
Now that my love has died from this disease that ravaged our lives, and it is safe for me to allow my feelings to exist, I have been on an incredible rollercoaster. Unpacking of this mental suitcase where I've had to compartmentalize so many memories as a survival mechanism...WOW! Sorting out what was real! It's safe to allow myself to love him now that he's passed. I get angry for being robbed of the love of my life! But, I never could really have what I yearned for as long as alcohol controlled him. Now, he's free. And I'm absolutely certain that God doesn't count the alcoholism and yucky stuff from it, but sees deeper than that. He loves all of us so much! He actually gave me one of those extremely rare, very real dreams, it was sooo simple and beautiful, that let me know that Mark is in heaven now, free!
Love is mhm or a switch that we can flick on or off. We lean to
Live with the good and bad, we care for them in sickness never asking
Anything but a kind touch of their hand to show the kindness
And love we offer to them. Knowing that deep down they too still
Love us they just have to fight thru the alcohol.
We see them on the verge of death many times affraid that
This will be our final moments together, see them suffer from
The damage this alcohol has put them through. Stealing from
As we accept this is the end and we tell them it all ok I still love you and
I'm here by your side. The alchol let them go to live a nother day
only to pull them back into the arm of alchol, leaving us again crying into our pillows and
Hateing the alchol more and more
Again we will stand by them praying that God show them the courage and strength to fight
This alchol. As our bank accounts and our health deteriorates for we give all to our mates.
nothing left to do but prayers and forgiven and hope for a miracle to bring our health and our
Love back as it was before the alchol took control.
Many prayers and hugs for you will have love,peace and joy the remainder of your
Days.
Prayer for all of us whom are still trying to hold on that God answers our prayers and gives us all the need
Love and courage we need to get though our days
Many hugs and prayers for us all
Bless your heart
Watching as the seconds pass and their breath get less and less