I am coping better than usual today shrugging his outbursts off, I have got two options to laugh seeing the funny side or cry becoming suicidal. Leaving him isn't an option I came to this decision after battling his addiction last year. It doesn't bother me now when he drinks and leave him alone most of the time. So when he interferes with me I reaffirm that I don't tell him how to not drink or I start slating him for drinking, then he leaves me alone from bullying me. We do have happy loving times throughout all this and have come to a place of accepting that I can not change him no matter what. I will be here for him should the day come that he wants to give up the alcohol. There is light at the end of the tunnel. In the mean time I focus on my studies and what I need to do helps me not worry about him.