Hello I am finally joining a support group because I am loosing myself and my spark for life. I’m one hell of a strong woman been down this road before with my first husband who ended up addicted to hard drugs now my second husband of six years (together for 10) is a raging angry, manipulative alcoholic who targets yours truly for all his toxic waste. I’m lied to about th3 dumbest things and then he tells his mom everything except his screwed perception that is in no way close to reality. He uses everyone and then there are those times sometimes a week or two at a time some very few but sometimes three weeks at a time where he is the man of my dreams addmits his addiction and try’s but always after being good the mean angry manipulative drunk comes back with a vengeance and why the hell im still here blows my mind. I know better but love the little part of what’s left of the man I married and I’m tired of starting all over yet tired of him taking off and drinking lying coming home and drinking all night while our sons we have together get pushed away and than he uses guilt on them. I try to put my foot down and he manipulates or straight up walks out and forces me so how the hell do I deal with this? It seems when he has consequences for his actions he lashed out harder like he got a DuI and thought he could beat it of course he did not you. Any blow a .13 and get out of it cost us 3000 then got a adult charge a5 a bar a month later somehow near that but th3 point is still he takes no responsablity just so blames and denies