I am so sorry all of you need to be here with me. I am so relieved you are because I cannot even say the words to friends and family. I am so ashamed of my weakness. I would tell any friend to not put up with what I do. But I caanot find the strength within to say its over and deal with all the logistics of the divorce. I'm the breadwinner and also have a fear that I will owe him alimony based on our state laws. So he's upstairs passed out. And I think he cheated on me. So no good reason to not kick him out. Just my fears.

I wish strength to all of you.