Today has started off well!  I'm starting to get out of my slump feeling down and depressed.  I woke up with high hopes.  AH was quiet this morning because he drank last night,  but I reassured him that I loved him anyway.  He was ashamed and tried to avoid me, but I decided to tell him that I joined an online group with woman who are married to alcoholics and who share in MY struggle.  He really is a good guy, but he is a closet drinker so really doesn't display it in public.  After reading some posts I think it's important that I take my voice back and stand strong.  I need to get up and move forward and take MY life back...and hopefully he can bring himself a long too.  I feel good knowing that I'm not as alone as I have felt for so long now.  I take comfort in writing about my issues here rather than writing my thoughts down on a piece of paper at work only to shred it later.  I prayed for you all last night....along with my family.  Thank you for bringing me back! <3