It's bad enough all that is going on with my spouse and the fact he isn't home, but now it appears I have one son with the flu and I feel the symptoms coming on... :-( This stinks.

I have a doc appointment soon and hope they will take a look at me while I'm there with my son.

Thankfully I put dinner on and it will be ready when the others get home from school...I pray they can find a ride home.

On the positive side, my AH hasn't really been around most of our marriage for things like this anyway, so in a lot of ways its no different.

On another note, my youngest son is grounded. I really could use a true husband/father; that would be SOOOO nice! He is young, has a girlfriend, and he is getting too frisky for my comfort and for the comfort of the young lady's mother. Her mom called me yesterday to make me aware of some things the two were planning. It's just not appropriate. I've had to take his phone. I talked with him about it and tried to treat him in a mature way since he is thinking "mature" thoughts, tho he is no where truly mature enough to take on that responsibility and the emotional side of things. So we talked, and unfortunately, I broke down in tears. Not really because of him, but just with everything going on -- a husband gone in relapse, a sick kid, I'm getting sick, and now this, I just couldn't contain my tears and broke down. I feel awful that I made him feel so awful. He started crying and apologized for doing this to me when I'm under so much pressure from his dad and cried saying it was so unfair to me and how selfish he was to do this...blah, blah, blah... Sweet boy. I assured him I was ok and would be ok and that my tears were not his responsibility and there is nothing in the world he could do to ever make me not love him. Oh my goodness. When will the drama ever stop??

Ok. I'm feeling awful...aches coming on, headache, cough, tired and I have to wake my sick son and take him to the doctor.

Thanks for listening to my mess.