I feel like I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown. My husband and his drinking are driving me crazy. All he does is complain about every little thing. Because I don't drink and get loud and obnoxious like he does he thinks I'm boring. One minute he loves me and is so thankful that he has me in his life and the next day he's in a miserable marriage and hates me. I'm so sick of him and all his bullshit. We just keep going in circles and nothing ever changes. Tonight he got mad because the neighbors complained about his loud music. He responded by lashing out at me saying we wouldn't have this problem if we were in a house. Well maybe we could have a house by now if he had contributed anything to this household in the last 5 years. I'm so sick of paying for everything. I absolutely cannot afford his habit anymore. I filed for divorce last year and he consulted a lawyer that said I would be responsible for his legal fees and he deserved spousal support because he hasn't worked in years. I'm so over this whole situation. In November he agreed we don't need to be together but begged me to put him on my insurance so he could get help before he left. I did it even though it's costing an extra $200 a month that I don't have. He swore he would go to rehab as soon as the plan became effective on January 1. But now he's acting like I'm crazy for asking him has he called any of the numbers I gave him. I feel like such an idiot for still being here. Right now I've locked myself in the bathroom to get away from him and his verbal abuse. I pray he goes to sleep soon so I can get some rest since I have to get up early and I'm working both my day and night job tomorrow. I keep hoping and praying that things will get better but it seems like they just keep getting progressively worse.