Someone asked me why I put up with the BS I do. I come by it honestly. My oldest brother is a alcoholic. I got together with him this past weekend, he of course got drunk and so much pain in his words about the past when we grew up. You don't really know what to say, all I want to do is take the pain away. We didn't grow up to stable, I just wish the pain was gone and things could be different. We talked about treatment and he is ready for it, However, the cost is so much and Insurance doesn't cover all the cost. He did go to AA I know that. I really don't know what happened with that. He can be belligerent and loud and obnoxious. I know he lost a lot of friends and a lot of family won't be around him ether. I have my own alcoholic to deal with, but it just makes me sad. He was a great big brother, and I love him so. I know I can't do anything but It don't make it any easier.