So I'm home on summer break with Prince Charming. Usually he manages to keep addiction slightly controlled during these school breaks, but not this summer. He is driving me crazy. I am trying to ignore most mistakes ( as he calls them)
those of you who have shared the shows AH s put on for us as they pass out on the couch really made me feel better about my evenings. Lately my husband has been so passed out that he never makes it to bed and I find him fully dressed in the morning in some crazy position or another. ( sometimes embarrassingly gross and pathetic.)
i have trained myself to not go downstairs in the middle of the night to check on him. Last night I made the mistake of doing that very thing
so picture this: slumped sideways with head on sofa side table, glasses squished between his ass and the arm of the couch ( just paid 50$ to have them fixed from last time)
i pad slid off lap dangling from charging cord, hand inside Cheetos bag like a snack food glove. I disgustedly went back to bed, then in an impulsive moment I grabbed my phone and went town and took a photo montage..... Close ups of his Cheetos bag glove, precarious iPad , squished up classes and overall body shot. This activity woke him up. So a 2:30 in the morning discussion takes place which was only
productive in reinforcing that he is so far gone he will never find his way home. Btw....he asked to see the pictures with an attitude like I was wrong, nope he was wrong!
Any way it's nine am the following morning..... I am spending the day with my sister. I wish us all a peaceful day.
They have no idea how ridiculous they look. It makes me so glad I don't drink. Among other things, addiction steals a person's dignity.
jms, have a wonderful day with your sister! You deserve it! Make peaceful memories today. I have lots of errands and appointments today, but I'm hoping to steal a few minutes to walk on the beach with my camera. That will be my peaceful time.
I once recorded my husband during a drunken rant because he sounded so idiotic that I believed if he could just hear himself he'd be embarrassed and not do it again. Well, he refused to listen to it. I wish I'd had the luxury of choosing not to hear it.
Hold you have a great day with your sister. Those little moments are what make everything bearable.
I've taken a couple of pics of my drunken husband. Took a video once too. I never showed them to him and I am not sure I will. I also keep a journal of his really bad drunken behavior. That I have printed out and given him.
Hope you day with your sister gave you a good break.
My journals go back several years. A therapist once suggested it so I would not forget. I find it most helpful and sometimes shocking how frequently the very bad episodes occur. But keeps me sane.
I never kept a journal, wish I had. But one day I sat at the computer and wrote my life story. I referenced back to it often. Eventually I changed all the names and published it on kindle as s work of fiction. Good therapy.
jms, have a wonderful day with your sister! You deserve it! Make peaceful memories today. I have lots of errands and appointments today, but I'm hoping to steal a few minutes to walk on the beach with my camera. That will be my peaceful time.
Hold you have a great day with your sister. Those little moments are what make everything bearable.
Hope you day with your sister gave you a good break.