My husband is an alcoholic and no matter what I say or do he refuses to stop drinking. Last week he was sicker than a dog and I though I was going to hospitalize him however he pulled through. He stayed sober 1 week but today I am suspicious that hes drinking. Ive been going through this for 10 years now and I am so fed up but cant get the courage to let him go. I know I need to let him go but each time I build the courage up somehow I convince myself that I am meant to stay loyal to him and see him through this dreadful disease. I guess the fact that I saw my mom live it with my dad I figure my time will come when my husband will decide to stop drinking just like my dad did. My father was an alcoholic for 35 years before he became sober. He has been sober now 24 years. My mom says it was hell to stick around however shes glad she did. They've been married almost 60 years and it gives me great hope that I will see that realization too. I know that I shouldnt put myself through such stress dealing with my husband and truly I dont. My husband is not violent nor is he troublesome however it hurts me immensely to see him hurt himself when he gets so sick. I hate that he cant work regularly and I hate that our social lives are so greatly affected because most of the time I am so mad at him for choosing to drink. So even if hes sober I am angry for the week prior he got drunk. I just cant seem to be consistent with my feelings. I love him dearly and I want to spend the rest of my life with him but how much more I can take I dont know. I feel cheated out of a quality of life. I wish he could just realize that if he sobered up our lives would be so different We could enjoy doing things like going to festivals, concerts, movies, travel, etc. But as long as he continues to drink we are on this roller coaster from being well to being ill. He drinks one week gets sick the other, stays sober one week, and back again we go. I hate it!!! DO any of you relate to this kind of drunk?