My fiance of six years called it quits on me last week because I didnt want to quit my job and watch his suicidal teenage daughter. He basically told me I wasnt there for him when he needed me most. He refused to sit down and discuss this like an adult, or listen to any reasonings I have on the subject. It is always his way or no way at all.

So, now I am single. I refuse to give up on him. I know he can be a good person. But I also know he is an alcoholic. Last night he told me and his 9 year old daughter to get out when she confronted him on his drinking. I was there for her and took her home with me so she could feel safe and happy. He told me this is my fault.

He constantly belittles me. Telling me I dont dress right. I dont listen to the right kind of music. I have no ambition or drive. My priorities are not my children. When someone tells you these things over and over, you tend to believe them. I know its the alcohol.

My heart aches. It is so hard to love someone so much when all they do is yell at you for nothing! I would start a conversation and he always interupts me. I can never finish a sentence. And I am always wrong. Then he puts words in my mouth. Telling me I said one thing when I never said it at all.

I am walking out the door to go straight to al anon right now. I just wanted to get this off my chest and hopefully someone out there will give me words of encouragement.

Thank you all