I've been trying to detach from my husband, but I keep getting side tracked when he flips it around. He drinks everyday. Not always till he's drunk but usually at least buzzed. I'm pretty sure he drinks just to feel normal most days. It's gotten pretty distant between us lately just because he sees the disgust from me, so instead of trying to fix it he just looks at me the same way, which then makes me miserable because I love him and don't want him to think so little of me. It's a cycle! I'm just at a loss, because instead of worrying about myself like I KNOW is the right thing, I always seem to have him on my mind too even though I try not to. How do you stop?  On the 4th of July we always go to where I grew up and watch the fireworks with my family, which he doesn't like to do anymore because he knows that my family knows what he does and he doesn't like that so he tries to stay away and keep me away from them too. Which will never happen! But it was so obvious on the 4th, because we went there, and he created this whole story about my sister and my dad, who I'm very very close with and tried to get me mad at them and just talked crap about them. Come to find out it didn't happen how he said. So he was just trying to isolate me from them and the whole night he had this cocky, to good for anybody attitude and acted like he was the one in charge of the kids and I, just seemed like to prove a point to my family. They are not mean or rude to him either. He's just so miserable with his own choices and chooses not to fix them so he takes it out on everyone else. I don't know how to go about it all. It doesn't help talking to him because he's a really smooth talker and can turn anything around, and believe me I've tried everything, crying, screaming, just talking, begging, everything. I don't want to leave, I just want to know how to not care as much or at all. I want to know how I live my life without him making it so hard.