I have been living as the spouse of an alcoholic for almost 3 years. It has been a rollercoaster ride for sure. Horrible times when it has gotten to the point of physical abuse (last time was a year ago). She has been drinking non alcoholic beer most of the time but the last couple of weeks it's been back to the bud light. She gets mean, nasty, and confrontational when she drinks. Saturday night she called me horrible names. My 16 heard it all and has been my greatest support through all of this. I think that I am ready to walk away. Things will never change. I no longer feel the same about her. I look at her and do not see or feel love, just empty regret. Am I crazy for feeling this way? I am very unhappy and have completely secluded myself for the last two days. I am so broken and am not able to forgive.