im so angry. It’s Christmas Eve and my husband decides that he’s had a long day and deserves a drink. Even though two nights ago I told him I was angry at him because he didn’t keep promises because of his drinking- and tonight he drinks again. And I’m so angry and upset because I’m SO USED TO IT and I’m in a situation where this is so familiar to me... I’m really angry. How dare he? Tonight I was supposed to go to a Christmas Eve service with my mum who had been driving all day to be able to be with us for Christmas- and my husband drinks. He had one drink (equivalent of at least 3 or 4) and I said if he drank, I couldn’t go out because we have an 11 month old son and I can’t leave him alone with him if he’s been drinking. His reaction was so over the top- he started pacing, punching his boxing bag, storming around the house- then said he was going to have a drink anyway. I told him that if he had a drink I would consider it one of the most selfish things he had ever done because it’s Christmas and because celebrating that is important to me. He said fine, I could go... but then mum texted and said she couldn’t make it and she was giving me a lift so therefore i couldn’t go either. So my husband had the green light to go and have a drink which he did- and now he’s asleep on his lazy boy. Merry Christmas to me, and great that he’ll be all blah in the morning when it’s our sons first Christmas and we have so much to do. I’m sorry to be all melancholic and self-centred- I swear I’m not usually like this- I just really needed to rant. 10 years... same old but I feel my coping is getting less and less. I told him tonight that I don’t think we’ll make it together because we’re arguing so much and it’s awful for our little boy to see that even though we try not to let it affect him... I’m just so done. And I’m so gutted that this man I love cant see what’s happening.