It never stops! He blames me for everything that goes wrong ... from a light bulb out to the lawn needing to be mowed. How is everything my fault? 

I can't stop crying tonight. It seems so hopeless. I have MS, no money, and my only family is an alcoholic sister who is exactly like my husband.

I try to stay positive, but tonight I'm overwhelmed with sadness. 

I meditate every day, count my blessings, try to stay busy with positive things, but it's like living with the devil. I don't have the strength to combat the evil that never stops.