All I wanted for so many years was for him to get sober. After about 3 years of marriage I started making plans to leave, but it took me 3 more years to build up the resentment, anger, desperation, and strength to leave. The imminent threat of me leaving was all he needed as a wake up call to start going to AA and sober up. But by then I couldn't unsee the harm alcoholism had done to both of us. I stayed a few more months to support him through the initial stages of sobriety, but the trauma of 8 years of alcoholism made me run the other way. I moved out and we are currently seperated. He wants to make things work and I am stuck in ambivalence made up of fear because of the trauma, a lack of trust that he will remain sober (even after 6 months), and a realization that we have grown in vastly different directions in living with this disease.

We have no kids and financial dependence is no an issue, so I feel like I should just get out while I can and move on. At the same time, I take my commitment to marriage seriously and I wonder if walking away from someone I deeply loved for many years is a mistake. Maybe we could get it all back...or maybe I would just waste more years of my life when I could be happier and safer with someone else. 

I need to break this ambivalnce/indecisiveness. Any advice?

Anyone had a similar reaction where they were brought past their breaking point at the same time their loved one got sober but felt like it was too late?