Just a bad bad day and I am so tired and drained and he is so drunk once again. Please can someone send me a prayer or a hug. What an obnoxious idiot and so two faced. To make a long story short....he is a father of a kid that is not biologically his, but has known her since she was a baby....spoiled and demanding teenager,,,,kid is aware of fathers drinking but in denial..doesnt think its a big deal for she hasnt witnessed his abusive drunken behaviour. for she lives with her mom. When she witnesses his behavior then she will be afraid too, He was sober for about one day yesterday and the two faced idiot surfaced and invited her over for a daughter/daddy baking day. I was left out, and in fact she never even came downstairs to say hello. She puts him on a pedestal for daddy buys her whatever she wants and treats her like a princess, but that was yesterday and tonite he is drunk as shit...and abusive verbally again.When she sees him hammered one day soon, he will lose her too.She does nothing wrong and I do nothing right. What a hypocrite....Just ridiculous...I also wouldnt let my kid get in the van of a drunken idiot...Horrendous role model for that kid and in my opinion, thats no father...
I feel for you. I too have an AH. It is draining, tiring and soul sucking living with an alcoholic. I also get blamed for everything that is wrong in the world, he takes no responsibility for his drinking and his personality changes when he's drunk. He's mean, miserable and the most negative person I have ever met.
I am going to alanon and a counsellor. I'm not focussing on him anymore. I'm focussing on me. I deserve better and it's up to me to make sure I give myself the care and attention I deserve.
I will pray for you, try to get some help for yourself and put yourself first. Hugs.
I pray for you every day! Everyday I pray for ALL of us dealing with alcoholism and ask why we are all going through this "lesson." Not really sure why good people deserve this, but I trust something good will come out of this. Once I read about someone who was asking God "Why are you putting me through this?" And she heard "Because you can handle it. It isn't your lesson - it is theirs." So I try to believe that the heartache I am going through is to teach another a lesson and you are there to help them along in some way.
Peace my friend.
I am going to alanon and a counsellor. I'm not focussing on him anymore. I'm focussing on me. I deserve better and it's up to me to make sure I give myself the care and attention I deserve.
I will pray for you, try to get some help for yourself and put yourself first. Hugs.
Peace my friend.