I have not been online in a while. I guess I have just set some boundaries and only spend time with my sig other when he is sober on the weekends. Lately, I have been spending more time with him during the week and he has been drinking on some days, but not horribly. So I have laxed a little on my rules/boundaries. A mistake.

Tonight he was likely at the bar all day while I was out and came back home and I heard a huge thump. He appeared to have fallen down stairs in his condo and appeared unconscious at the base of the stairs. I was about to call 911 and he responded to my voice. He did not appear be hurt, but was wasted. Fearing I would call 911, he crawled up the stairs and became belligerent with me threatening suicide and saying I "set him up" and could "no longer be trusted" because I called his sister to come over. He sometimes threatens suicide, but only when he is drunk. A very bad night. A wake up call to remind me that things are not any better and wondering if this has happened before when I am at my place. I pray for his safety, but know this is not the life I want. Why don't I leave the relationship? His sister is supportive and telling me to take care of myself and is encouraging me to keep some distance from him for a while.