My thoughts and emotions are a bit jumbled...

I know I posted before that my AH was "taking" Antabuse meds, he did admit that he was not taking them. He since however HAS been taking them.  I know they are the correct pills and I've seen him take them, but I still doubt that they truly work for him.  I've read that "oh no- the person will get violently ill if the smallest amount of alcohol enters the system."  I also read a few entries where people said it really had no affect.  So frustrating.  I hate being clouded by doubt.  It's not fair to him if/when I accuse him- and also not fair to myself.  

On one up side- he had an eye opening therapy session about a week ago.  He battles depression stemed from childhood abuse.  She said something profound that has made him question how he really views himself.  Mentioned that a weight had started to be lifted off his shoulders.  I'm hoping he's not just saying what he hopes I want to hear.  Its hard to not get my hopes up that he/we may move forward.   I try to keep myself grounded and just focus day by day- I just want the hard part to be over.