Everytime I wake up to a post-it note on a door or counter my heart drops and I feel sick. When my AH gets really drunk he leaves me nasty notes about stuff that makes no sense. Imagined slights, things I may have said a month ago that he took wrong is scribbled in a drunken scrawl of hatred.

Lately it's been getting worse. Last week he left me a nasty note saying that "he can't believe I would say that to him" and how hurt he is, blah blah blah. I had no idea what he was talking about. When he woke up I showed him the note and asked him what the hell it meant and it was from a dream he had that he thought was real. Now I'm being terrorized on paper for his dreams? 

My AH sleeps all day and drinks all night. So the other night I asked him to do something on the computer for me and he said "he didn't have time." I said, "of course you have time, you don't go to bed until 7 a.m. anyway." This was NOT a nasty comment for I live on the same schedule he does. It's a running joke between he and I, that we live like vampires.

Yesterday I woke to a nasty note about how dare I judge him for his sleeping schedule and what a piece of shit I am. Again, I thought he was writing me about another dream so I asked him about it when he woke up. Usually we kinda laugh off his notes but yesterday he was dead serious. When I tried to explain it was a misunderstanding, he wouldn't let me get a word in. After 26 years I thought he couldn't shock me anymore. WRONG.