I made the appt.for myself and my children ,not even him ,unless he chose it ,then he is welcome,not excluding or including ,his decision , and JE CAME FLYING OUT OF THE BATHROOM.."YOU LYING CUNT!!,you said you were making a counseling appt for the youngest girl (with held her name ),..not for you or us or the rest of the kids.Ypuve been told by two counselors, Now you need to listen to ME, that's the problem ( keep in mind ,these counselors were in our home ,and he was present or close by ,and I WAS NOT BEING COMPLETELY honest as to his issues and the results of them ,nor mine or the children's ,I was being very vanilla put of fear ,and I said this ,but it absolutely passed with out a pause )...you are a fucking retard ".

i respond," I' making a group counseling season ,for us all, only including you ,at your discretion your choice ."

him,"get up get the fuck out of this room now,...get out ,I'm tired of paying for everything ,( I am now trying to pay for an be more or as much financially responsible as I can, paying car payments and utilities with my student loans ,asking little to nothing from him as I can )...you need to put a belt across that brats ass is all the problem we have (as he picks up a liquor bottle tilts back his head and let's the remainig drips fall on his tongue ,) you always pull this shit AFTER ,I pay all the bills and then I m broke ,or I'd leave (financial hostage ,that's me and he knows it )..you just wait the one counselor told you ,you should've be grateful I'm here ..(again very very mislead info that this counselor has, due to her ,once again being a court order due to CPS issues ,of course I'm not going to tell her the truth ,they don't let homeless people have custody of their kids )....

me: can i take a shower 

Him:: " yeah,go  wash your ass bitch "

I'm thinking of going to get a TPO on Monday ,..I'm sitting here in my own house, after being told I have to leave my room ...and I don't know,other than lack of resources ,why I'm here ,I'm in college ,trying to get educated to leave, and be able to financially walk away ,without a trace .I had hoped we could get counseling and stay put to keep stable until I graduated ,it doesn't se like it will happen that way ..I'm locked invthe bathroom ,wrapped in a towel, speaking with one of the few sources of support I freely and openly have to say exactly how ifeel ,to people who possess a knowledge of how rotten and horrible it all is ,and the heart break of hearing someone whom you trusted with your well being and the well being of your children ,speaking to you as if your trash on the street ,.

but I know , unfortunately who the trash is on this occasion , and I don't say that lightly,..I wish I was wrong ,bit he's garbage, and I'll spend the rest of my days, trying to have compassion for someone who has made me give up hope that love exists ,true love between couples I mean,...love exists but I doubt in this realm