I am sorry, Rick. triple hugs

Rick, I am glad that they are ok and not seriously hurt. I Can see how that would trigger something and it will for a while. It maybe something big or something small. It has been over a year for me but I still find some stuff can trigger an emotion for me and then it does feel like it only happened. You are only ten weeks into this nightmare and sometimes you want to wake up. I know I did, but you have to live second by second, minute by minute and then day by day. There is no timeline for grieving. You will grieve in your own way and for ever how long you need to grieve. Just make sure that you drink lots of water it helps produce the tears. I started a journal a month or so in and I still write to my husband and I still sleep with his shirt. I find it comforting. You are still in a fog right now and that will clear, but for now just grieve, it is our way to start to heal. I know when I first came here I was told it would get better and at that time it was not what I wanted to hear, but it does get better and I promise it will. I am not over how I lost my husband and I am not over lossing him, but I am in a better place than I was in when I was 10 weeks in. Take care Dianna

thats why your still here, someone needs your strength

i tried putting on some of jeans clothes, but it just felt creepy and weird. my neighbors agreed

Strength like a broken egg shell.

Hello Rick,
I am glad that your family is safe. And I have to agree with myhusbandisanangel. She helped me out with the most darkest minutes of my life and if it was not for her I would not be here. After she got me through my darkest minutes I started a journal and you know it did help me, sometimes I write in it more than once a day. Yes drink lots of water as I didn’t and it was hard on the eyes, but drinking water does help. I hope this is of some help. God Bless you. Karen

who else but you

i thought you could use a cheap laugh

The neighbors, the alligators, and all the other wildlife probably agreed.

I'm glad your son and his fiance are okay. I understand about triggers - the kind you are talking about anyway. And it can be anything really. My blow dryer cord ignited a week ago, and that was a scary thing. I quickly unplugged it, but not before the electric current burned my pinkie. About a year ago I had someone tell me how "strong" I was. I just sort of cringed because I knew better. I was probably about 10 weeks in at the time. I have to keep a close watch on myself because no one else is. And please, no one on here tell me how lucky I am to be alive, but if you don't see me on here for a week or so, come check on me...

You had to put the alligators in it Rick. Now I’m laughing. And I also am glad your family is ok.

Sorry to hear about the news and the trigger.

Some other cheap laugh you can get from Allegator...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zdVuEpD9_IY

From CS Lewis, A Grief Observed
"I once read the sentence ‘I lay awake all night with toothache,
thinking about toothache and about lying awake.’ That’s true to life.
Part of every misery is, so to speak, the misery’s shadow or reflection:
the fact that you don’t merely suffer but have to keep on thinking
about the fact that you suffer. I not only live each endless day in grief,
but live each day thinking about living each day in grief. Do these
notes merely aggravate that side of it? Merely confrm the monotonous, tread-mill march of the mind round one subject? But what am I
to do? I must have some drug, and reading isn’t a strong enough drug
now. By writing it all down (all? — no: one thought in a hundred) I
believe I get a little outside it. That’s how I’d defend it to H. But ten to
one she’d see a hole in the defence."

Nebby, was that you I saw in St, Vinny's in a mini skirt and tights? Do you have a long beard?

Raininseattle, I watched the allegator! Very funny. And C.S.Lewis: A writer I really admire.

With alligator boots!