I'm so very sorry for your loss and I understand the feelings you are struggling with. I lost my husband after a 40year marriage and I had the same feelings. This is a daily struggle to believe that this has happened. It's something that seems unbelievable and it encompasses more than the loss of our love one. Our plans have disappeared, our life has disappeared and nothing is the same. Take it a day at a time and often moment by moment. Will things get better? That's a hard question. Things will become bearable. You will find a way to accept the reality and live through it. You will carry her in your heart forever, but forge into a new life of your choosing. I'm glad you found us. Only those who have been thr this can truly understand. Sharon

Ouch. I'm so sorry Mark......I know, as all of us here do, what you're going through. I lost my Mark January 25th. And this site was a lifeline for me. I read every post and found the w/w of faith board also. Nothing prepares us for this grief but I've found so much support here. I'm nearing 7 months now....but tomorrow 8/17 is Marks birthday and 8/18 Is MY birthday. It was a big 2 day special time. I'm anxious. ...just wanting to take my dog and go camp alone in the mountains and spend time with God and nature, but it seems people around me just plan along like its any other day...for them it is.
Thankful, so thankful we have this site. It took me several months before i started having periods where grief went to the back burner. It is less intense now but I know that an unexpected wave can hit. Be gentle with yourself. There's no time limit on this.

Laurie and Sharon, Thanks, Blessings and Peace.

Mark, I'm so sorry for your devastating loss. This journey your on is not for the fainthearted, please know that we, here are all in different stages of this grief journey. We have absolutely know what you are going through right now. Pleade know you are in a safe place to feel you are not alone. We "get it"
I'm pretty sure, the men who are here, will have encouraging things to say.
Just know there is hope, hold on to that with every breath you take.
Please take care of yourself......gentle hugs.....Sandra

Mark, I'm sorry for so many typos, hopefully you understood my post....Sandra

Sandra, thanks and Peace... Knowing that there are others that understand where I am helps a lot..

Mark, ramble away I do it often. So sorry you had to find this group but it's a great place to find support. I've been here for 5 months and it's a great lace to commiserate with this in similar mind sets. Hugs, laurie

I know how you feel. My husband has been gone since March 25. My son & his wife stayed with me a couple of weeks after but it doesn't matter if anyone was here or not. It is still lonely. I will say there are bearable days & really bad days. I have posted a few times here but reading the post helps. You are not alone. Here we all are dealing with the same heartache & loneliness. Ramble when you need to. It helps. Prayers for better days.

I'm truly sorry about your loss. You are like someone who just had his limbs severed. It takes time to find out what to do with yourself and how to move around and how to get back to a 'new' normal life again. Be gentle to yourself as you find out. Live five minutes, one moment to the next. Try to be more aware of the present. Remember this old saying as you go along this journey: what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

I am so sorry for your loss. It must have been quite a shock because it was unexpected. Even with your family there with you it is understandable that losing your life partner would make you feel alone anyway. My husband passed away 7/15/16 after a long illness. He was bed bound and I took care of him every second for 8 months straight. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done but I would do it again in a heartbeat and even though we couldn't do anything or go anywhere, we could still talk and laugh and I could give him a hug or a kiss. I have a big hole in my heart, life has changed and the loneliness is unbearable at times but I think in time things will become easier for all of us here. Keeping busy is what is helping me the most. Wishing you peace in your bereavement and know that others are going through the same.

The date of her passing was also the same date of my grandma's interment.
I am still missing my grandmother.