Widows & Widowers Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have lost a husband, wife, or partner. Anything is open for discussion here, with the hope that we can focus on grief, bereavement, life after loss, and continuing on after a great loss.

Chris
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Don and I had a wonderful marriage and I will miss him forever. That's not it. It was three years in June and for 2 1/2 of those years I probably would have said 'me too.' but in the past 6 months I've grown spiritually, emotionally, and even intellectually.
I rely heavily on my faith and I've learned the meaning of "A Time for All Seasons" There's a bigger plan than life on this earth and I'm looking forward to eternity. My life with my parents, marriage to Don, raising my children, even relating with friends have all shaped who I am now and I can look forward to continue this life into the afterlife. Having Don go before me IS a very hard lesson to accept and if I hadn't found DS (which was also part of the plan) or if I was where I was in 2007 or 2008 or even 2009 I wouldn't be writing this.
It's 2010 and as the old saying goes: I'm not the person who married Don. I'm not the person who buried Don. I am a new person and it is good.
Here's hoping you can understand what I'm trying to say and not think poorly of how I feel. Sharon
There were a few times I felt my faith shaken and I had to wrestle with doubts about faith. There were plenty of days that had me wondering if my faith was all a waste.
Since I lost her I have seen so much at work in my own life and in the lives of people around me I am convinced that there is a reason why I am still here. I hope nobody feels offended but I just have a feeling there are things for me to do that I couldn't do while I was taking care of her.
For many years I struggled with feelings that I was never good enough for God. There was a constant battle with my desire to be a better person, always there were feelings of being inadequate.
I rarely even think about those things anymore. I have grown in my faith and found it to be much simpler than I always thought it should be. The whole concept of faith confused me. It finally makes sense to me that faith isn't so much something I have to do but it is just part of who I am.
I guess what I am trying to say is that I have been kicked, dragged and chased through hell so many times and am still standing that my confidence in my faith and my relationship with God has been proven to me. I sometimes wonder if I "needed" to go through all those things to make me stronger, to make me able to stand straighter and more confident.
Something that has always fascinated me is the process metals go trough to be made more pure. I have watched as metal has been heated to it's melting point and seen the impurities, or dross, float to the top and be skimmed off. Each time the metal goes through the process of being heated it becomes more pure, it becomes more "simplified" because it is closer to containing only the base metal and less complicated with other things that do not belong.
If a way I feel that being "dragged through hell" has been the process by which my faith is shaken and heated so the dross can float to the top. I used to fear the process often realizing there would be more trials ahead. I don't fear them anymore.
I'm not saying I am perfect, I don't expect to be in this lifetime on this earth but my faith is simpler, stronger and more pure than when I first started this life.
In answer to the question I don't think I would want to live forever in this life. I would have to watch all my friends and family die and leave me behind. I think eventually I would start to feel left out. How many "lifetimes" would it take before I started to feel as if I had been rejected even by death. The only reason I would want to live longer than my own natural lifetime would be if there were some incredibly important, exciting, engrossing work to keep me occupied.
Hugs,
Matt
Stephen's death has just made me realize how precious our lives are and how we should make the most of each day. It's early days for me, and I'm just now starting to even think about what to do with the rest of my life.
I feel VERY strongly that eveything happens for a reason and according to God's plan. I know God had a reason for taking Stephen so young, and I have to leave myself open to learning what that reason is. Time will tell.
I also believe that after my time on earth is complete, I'll rejoin my husband in heaven. My goal is to make sure that when we meet again his first words are, "Well done, you made me proud."
In heaven - yes. With my husband and my loved ones.
As for living 500 years with the same man - my husband, sounds wonderful to me. We enjoyed life together, having gone through the difficult years and passed many milestones. We knew each other inside and out and loved each other completely.
Kaaren (words from our wedding)