Today i did not have much news to share about my day, but i definitely would tell her how much i love her, and reminded her she was the best. And so beautiful. And smart. And funny.

I would tell him how much I miss and love him.
- about my newer red Beetle
- about the garden chores being all done
- about getting estimates on a new roof and how expensive it is
- about his old employer still giving me coverage
- about the house flooding because a hose going to toilet burst
- everyone is doing great
- how his kids rallied around me, he would have been so proud
- I made up a new will and included your children in it.
A lot has happened. I wish you were by my side. Life without you is a b*tch.

I would tell him he was right about a lot of things---many of his coworkers ARE crazy and WERE out to get him; getting a decent night's sleep everynight IS important; my mother DOES talk too much :-) ; we DO have great kids; and it IS more important to spend time with them than to work late, no matter how much we try to convince ourselves that it will teach them work ethic and provide financial security.
And I would tell him he was wrong about a lot of things---I am most definitely NOT too good for you; I DID get my book done and published; I did NOT die of a stroke before you could die of a heart attack; a yak farm in Idaho would NOT have penciled out to be lucrative; the Celtics and Green Bay did NOT bring home championship rings; and the causes you championed DID matter and still do.
Most of all I would just say "thank you" for a few big things and a million little things that changed my life for the better forever. I was able to experience that "I've got your back" kind of love that is a rare find and I am still able to feel that support today. As a matter of fact, I DO tell him these things and more on a daily basis. I was incredibly blessed to have found him and remain blessed by his continued influence in my life.

I would tell him I love him, our daughter is doing well in college and yes I am running the heater already. I would also tell him that he was right this is a good place to stay, we do have great friends and one of his children is trying to get to me. I would also like to tell him that I am glad I had the chance to meet him, marry him, love him. I was truly blessed. I would not change a thing even if I knew in the beginning he would have to leave me early in our lives.

I would tell her to stop what she is doing, it can wait. Get in the MG, we are going to drive up the coast highway, and we might or might not make it back tonight!

Too many times, "really important" things took priority.

I would tell him how loving his Mom is too me. That our Grandson is doing well in school and playing football. That the grand kids talk about him all the time and miss him so much. That I am okay and figuring out how to go on alone.

I would tell him how much I love him and that I miss him as much as I did the first day he left this earth. I would let him know how his great grandson talks about him constantly & how much he misses him. He tells he all the time that I can still hug & kiss grandad but I have to explain how grandad is not here anymore, then he says, "but you can still talk to him & tell him you love him." Our three girls miss him terribly & still write on his online journal all the time. I would have to let him know how his son is trying to change his life now that dad is gone. He wants to make him proud by trying to help me in any way. He is so sorry that he was estranged form his dad. More than anything I would let him know that I wish he would have listened to me years ago so that his life would not have ended so young. I would let him know that I am still getting help & trying to understand things that went wrong in the hospital so I can get beyond those last few days.

I would tell him that I'm mad at him for not growing old with me.
I would tell him that I am sad it is to be alone.
I would tell him that his lack of showing the boys respect for me has left scars.
I would tell him thank you for taking care of things. For all the little things that I always thanked him for and gave him pats on the back for really did matter the most.
I would tell him that I want to walk into the garage and find him there putzing on some project. That I miss his scent. Touching him and kissing on him. I miss being us.
I would hope to hear him say that he now understands how much I loved him....

I would tell him that is hard without him but I will go on. And just like when he was in Nam I grabone of his jackets and hold it to my nose to smell his smell. That the kids are fine and close if I need them. That I did not pay off the house but I bought a new fifth wheel instead and we have had a good vacation with it as well as more to come. We will make the trips he had wanted to make with the old trailer. And I will leave a few of his ashes on each trip so he will be there too. And thank him for pushing me into going back to school; I have a good paying job and can take care of myself by myself. And I'll be coming to him but just not for awhile.

I would tell him:

Why, Joe? Why did you do it? You KNEW that I would be hurt, once I found out.(he will know what I'm talking about)...and I wish I had his answers.

I still love you and always will.
I MISS you!
Our children miss you almost as much as I do.
I love my puppy you were buying me for Christmas. She is a lot of company since it is only she and I. She loves to sit in my lap.
Our 2 oldest grandchildren are now in their first year of college.
Our 7th grade granddaughter (only girl) is a JV cheerleader @ our alma mater & her brother
Our lil 4th grade grandson is playing football @ our alma mater.
Our 7th grade grandson is playing football too (not at our alma mater)and his lil brother still hates football!
Our son's football team has 3 W & 3 L, and I'm going to his game tomorrow. As the coach, you know hon, he has done great.
ALA is doing GREAT this year, after winning Nat'l Championship last year.
I really wish you could have watched your daughter play semi-pro women's football this past spring and early summer. She is good, like you and her brother.
Your 2 oldest brothers' health is steadily declining.
I told you to get those tests done!!
I know, though, in my heart, that the test probably would not have made a difference. You still would not have had surgery, not w/o a fight. I have to believe that it was your time and either way, you would have been gone.
Being your widow is HARD! I miss you and love you always........

Mike.......I hate teaching our son to drive. It scares the crap out of me having someone else drive my car. The downstairs toilet got fixed and I had to do some touch up painting on the wall in the hall that the baby thinks is her blackboard. Tell her not to do that..please. The leaves are beautiful colors, but the hunters will be out and about. I miss you, and the kids miss you. I wish you could just come home.

I think what I would tell him today is that I love him and miss him, but he would be so proud of me for going forward and moving on in my life. I would tell him that he was right, that I am a very strong person and that I'm going to be ok. I'm not liking it, but I'm doing it.

I would also tell him about April. I would tell him that she is growing and maturing into a beautiful and smart young woman and how proud he should be of her for being such a resposible and mature 16 year old.

But of course, I don't need to tell him. He already knows this and is watching over us every single day.

I would tell him I love him, that as each day passes I love him more. I would thank him for chosing me and enhancing my life. I would tell him that he shared so many things with me and broadened my world. I would thank him for the mountian of support he always gave me and for being the very best friend I ever had.
I would tell him that I was wrong about his brother, he has been a great support to me and has become a friend. I would tell him that I miss him like crazy.

i would thank him for so many things,
thank you for giving me strength
thank you for making me feel the understanding of true love
thank you for caring about how i was feeling
but most of all thank you for being so proud to call you my husband
being your wife was the best thing to happen in my life
i will love you always.

I tell him every night that I love him forever and will join him someday. Today I would tell him that I finally found matching bamboo flooring for the bedrooms to match the ones he installed in the rest of the house. Of course he knows this already because he guided me to the bamboo display at our Sunday date place- Lowes.