2 Months is a milestone...big hugs to you..when I can't decide between 2 Choices I do both ..so u can cry while laughing...others might think your crazy..but you and all of us know different..

day by day, month by month..... We make them proud by living each day to the fullest.

I'm realizing that even though I too feel like I'm crazy during this time (I lost my husband on October 29, 2014), actually having a "crazy" reaction to a loss so devastating is actually normal. What happened to our loved ones is the crazy part. I lost my darling in a sudden and completely unexpected way and he was only 51. Nothing prepares you for this (even previous losses of other loved ones in your life). So the only crazy part is that they are gone. How we cope and move on in our own way is not crazy. Best wishes to you.

Thank you, emastin, for posting this. I'm not quite to 1 month yet. And it is nice to know, from the experience of others, that normal is something I can look forward to -- and not that far into the future.

Thanks for your post, 2 months, I'm at 2 weeks...I so want normal.. I so want to look forward to each day not drudge through it. I think the 1st year is the hardest, each day is a reminder of what I would have been doing with Ray. I wake up at 2:30 each morning thinking of him. That's when he'd put more wood on the fire. Now I get up and do it alone..SPRING will be here soon, he'd fish all the time, I promised him this year when he was better I'd go with him more. That made him so happy..

I will be 2 months on 2/17. Just when I think it's getting easier a wave hits me. I am either hysterical or have anxiety. Also have some scary dreams.