I find myself trying to move on the best I can at this time, but I seem to get 2 steps forward and then all the sudden because reasons behind my husbands death should have been caught years ago I get pulled 3 steps back. First there and please forgive my spelling, but the outopsy report was wronge not once but twice, it took many weeks of phone calls and going over and over all that was wronge to try and get it right and then trying to get them to send it to me, which it was still wronge after 3 months of going through that. That is not even the worest part though, the cancer should had been detected over 5yrs ago. By the time they found the cancer it was in all his major organs. The only signs he showed was weight lose and he was tired, but he started a new job and opened his own pizza shop so we thought that it was stress. I still try and think back to other signs that I missed like pains that he had that would come and go and I just keep thinking I should have had him see a Dr, I know the what ifs will never bring him back, but I get so made that the Drs should have been able to detected this cancer along time ago. That is something you just can not get over.
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