So sorry to hear of your double loss. I hope you transcend your grief, and find some form of happiness in the near future. I share your dismal view of the upcoming season, as I lost my wife of 43 yrs. to cancer 4 wks. and one day ago.

My guess is that your grief losing your husband was suspended while you had to care for your mother. I can not even begin to imagine what you are feeling now. Hang in there. Believe it or not, grief is our way of healing, so we all must go through it to get to whatever life awaits each of us. I am so sorry. Scottie

I lost my Dad last January 2017 to dementia while watching my husband fight cancer. I lost my husband August 2017 to his battle to cancer. It is so hard most days. I know how you feel. I hate being alone.

Sorry for your losses. The upcoming Holidays will be tough for most of us that will be going thru the first Christmas without the one/ones we loved. Cancer took my wife on Oct 4th, she was 49. From finding out there was a problem until she passed was only 3 weeks. Not much time to prepare and say good byes, but I don't think there is ever enough time for that anyways. Today is 9 weeks she's been gone and I still think of her almost every second of every day. She majored in art in college and was always taking pictures of everything. That left me with a bunch of expensive gear that I don't even know how to use, but it also left me with so many pictures of our times together thru the years.

The really bad moments of pain are starting to be taken over by the memories of the good times and the pictures and videos really seem to comfort me. Sometimes the pictures bring on waves of sorrow and pain, the reality of the loss of those precious times can hurt a lot too.

Coming home to the empty, quiet, seeming dead house everyday is the worst now. I have found that leaving the tv playing helps a little and makes the lifeless empty feel not so bad when I open the door. We each have to find our own little tricks make the hard times a little easier.

My best to you, Eddie

Oh wow. How much hurt can one person endure? tsheart, I'm so, so sorry.

I can relate a little...my brother was diagnosed with glioblastoma on 1/9/17. He had surgery, radiation and chemo. He is actually getting a follow-up MRI today and I'm hardly breathing while waiting to hear if the tumor is back. Then my husband was diagnosed with cancer (didn't know the origin) on 11/5/17, 20 days later, he was gone. They told us it was pancreatic cancer just one week before he passed.

I'm so terribly sorry. The overwhelming hurt is unspeakable...but even more unspeakable this time of year, that's supposed to be filled with joy, love and family. I'm sending you cyber hugs...for whatever it's worth.

Wow! I'm so very sorry for your great loss, one after another! Everything you are feeling is normal. Unfortunately you have to go thru all the feelings to heal and enjoy the memories without so much pain. You will always miss them terribly and your heart will hurt and long for them but it won't be as pressing or painful. It will take time, nothing will hurry you thru it all. Soak in the good memories. look at the pictures, don't avoid them, work thru the pain and also enjoy the good times. Give yourself a lot of grace, don't expect more of yourself than you need to do. If you gather strength from being alone, do that. If you gather strength by being w loved ones or in crowds, go and do and see. <3 God is surrounding you in His loving arms. Go to your favorite places you went w them to honor them and soak in memories. I have gone thru the loss of parents and other loved ones and empathize w you. <3