It is exhausting isn't it. If we could only get a break. ~Pete

Yep, especially the first year it was really hard. I used to veg out in front of the TV and watch Project Runway, Top Chef and the Hallmark channel! It helped a little bit, at least it occupied my mind for a space of time.

Hugs,
Val

Yes Pete it is exhausting! And so hard to care about anything at times. Or want to do something but have no energy and then feel guilty you got nothing done at the end of the day. Hugs and Love, Michele

Val, I just can't imagine this hurt ever going away!

Michele, I feel the same way. The not caring about anything bothers me so much. I am a stranger to myself.

If not for this site and all here who share their feelings, I don't know what I would do. The members who are where we are help me know I'm not going crazy, and the ones further on help me know I will be better someday.

It's just so hard right now.

Hugs,
Linda

I know Linda, it's like what's the point? He is not here to share anything with anymore. Even the joy of my kids, grands and dogs. He is not here. So how can we give a crap about work, housework, yardwork, holidays etc. The list just goes on and on. Where and what is our future? I am just clueless. Hugs and Love, Michele

Michele, I so understand,I have no energy to do much of anything. I resent doing the things I have to do. Like I have to get a new roof and I feel hay what's the point.I watch mindless stuff on tv just to have some noise on. It's been 6 mo.for me and I'm wondering how this all happened. Well at least I do know he's not coming back where as in the beginning I kept waiting for him to return. I'm praying we all start to feel a bit better soon. HUGS, Valerie

I'm so over it to. It's been over 2 years and at times it hits me full force that I am let alone on this journey through life.
Hugs, Sandi

I am still looking for someone that I really hate so I can leave this on their front porch...ring the bell and run.

Maggie

For those of you who this is fairly new to.......the lows aren't as low as they were in the first year. But [and you know what they say about everything before "but" is horsepucky] the sadness doesn't really go away, you just find a hiding place inside your head where you can hide it, until it rears its ugly head again.

I'm at 2 1/2 years and the tears don't come as easily but they do come. The reality of being alone and the hellish quiet is dealt with a swift blow of The Housewives on TV.

There are still "triggers" that will start me to well-up but it doesn't last as long as it used to and I can talk myself out of it pretty quickly.

I'm not seeing Morey so much as I used to, at every bus stop or in line at the bank or in an aisle at the market. I used to swear that he was there, that I saw him. I don't see him like I used to.

He's not in pain anymore and here I am suffering through the loss of him!

Michele, you were always "there" when I needed you and I thank you for that.

Love,
Roz

Roz, I thank you so much for your efforts toward us newbies. Unfortunately I am So jaded, that all I can focus on is "you're still here. and so are others at 2 and 3 and ? years after Loss" so all the experienced ones are still in Grief. it never really leaves us. "It" is part of us now, and in the future.
I want to leave it Behind, and that just isn't happening. not 2 or 3 or ? years from now.
Last night, a friend via phone call tried to convince me of my potential. I told her she was completely deluded. Lol
So hard.
I am not an endurance athlete.

I feel exactly like Michelle posted.
Truth Bomb.

Wish we had a like button!

It is exhausting! I thought I was making head way when I could go 3 days relatively okay. Then today happened. Silly as it is my dog getting really sick has sent me into a tail spin.

I just wish i could go a week without an anxiety attack or pain inside. I wish I had a magic wand that could help us all.
Hugs - Sue