I am not sure about normal exactly Ruth, as normal isn't something I've ever aspired to. I do know it will get less horrible in time. You'll always miss him, and that's a good thing right? A testament to the love you shared. But you will feel less raw, more able to cope, and the time between drowning in sorrow and being able to breathe will get longer.
But in the meantime -
be kind to yourself, indulge any whims if you are able and not likely to end up in jail or rehab, drink lots of water, catch naps whenever you can, and try to get yourself out in the land of the living whenever possible.
It's such a painful, unbelievably shitty time. And I didn't discover any shortcuts or I'd be sure to share them.

It is getting worse, you are correct about that. And it will get better and then much worse again, BUT you can do this. With some help from your friends. Here at DS. We truly all get it.

In your heart you know that he wants you to be happy, and in time you will find ways to be, and realize that it doesn't take away from what you had, it's because of what you shared.
Wishing you many comforting dreams and memories. Hang in there. ((())) Sue

It sure seems to come in waves, I'm almost at 5 months the reality has set in. I don't cry everyday, but still feel lonely and lost. Numb I believe. The holidays are horrible and I'm sure when new years gets here ill be a mess again. Baby steps is how I seem to get through day by day. Wishing you the best and some comfort.

I just passed the third month mark and for some reason that third month mark was very bad. I wasn't prepared for these waves, either. I thought that there would be some sort of steady improvement. Hoping that when the holiday craziness is over and things around us settle down, we can move forward peacefully.

Thank you guys for your responses. It seems like I feel so much worse on the weekends. I guess there is too much unstructured time, which used to be a good thing.

I'm at just over 9 months and although I am able to function, I miss him terribly and still cry at least once/day...I wish I knew if it gets better, but so far, it has gotten worse for me, too..