Husband died 12/23/14. I'm functioning but still feels like yesterday.
One of the most difficult things is that I don't have a safe place/person to just vent to about my sadness.
It is unfair to go to my sons all the time, my best friend doesn't know how to listen (she tries to analyze and fix things and drone on about what I should do) and I'm afraid that other family members are getting tired of hearing the same old thing.
I am still seeing a grief counselor once a month but sometimes I need more.
Hello to all. I've arrived into my 4th holiday season since Juani's terminal cancer diagnosis, my 3rd spent without her. I've managed to survive it somehow, despite my best efforts otherwise. I'm coping with regrets now. Not regrets regarding my old happy life. No, my regrets are about my extreme behavior coupled with poor decisions I made while in grief/depression in the first 2 1/2 years after...
I lost my wife unexpectedly on 26 Sep 18. She was the love of my life, my soulmate, my best friend, and my everything for the last 32 years. We had just gone to bed and said I love you to each other. As I was drifting off to sleep, I heard her start making a grunting/moaning sound. I flipped on the light and found her face down in her pillow clinching her chest having a heart attack. I called...