Widows & Widowers Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have lost a husband, wife, or partner. Anything is open for discussion here, with the hope that we can focus on grief, bereavement, life after loss, and continuing on after a great loss.
My husband died in November and today would have been our 20 year anniversary. I didn't even remember today was our anniversary but all I have done today is cry. I don't know how to live anymore. I know this sounds stupid but I am just LOST. I can't believe that it has been 6 months. When does this all stop? I am sad, confused, and still a little angry. I am turning 48 in a few days and he won't be here. I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with him and now I am alone. Don't get me wrong, my family and friends are great and have been a wonderful help but it's not the same. I miss my husband very much.
I understand how it is to be alone among family and friends. My prayers and thoughts are with you today....your anniversary day.
Believe me, I understand how you feel. My wife died of ovarian cancer on March 22 this year. We have 2 children, 16 and 13. All the plans we had, etc are all gone. Everywhere I look in the house, she's there. I feel numb and sometimes I feel like "a lost puppy". Her birthday is this month. Everyone grieves a little different. That's all normal. I was listening to a seminar last night and the speaker said that if you crack an egg on the outside it would kill the developing chick and bring death. But, if you crack the egg from the inside, the chick brings life. I just have to look at the "crack in my life" as one that will bring life to my children and I. I still hurt. I still cry a little everyday, but I know Kathy, my wife, would want me to continue to live and experience life. And I know from a man's point of view that your husband would want you to live your life to the fullest. (when you can) I know it's hard. Don't give up. And, its' okay to cry all day. Sometimes you just have to do that.