What an appropriate phrase, "emotionally bankrupt". My husband died in April and I still feel emotionally empty! Foe me personally, the physical symptoms...feeling the waves of emotion flow that make you sick to your stomach and shaky are far less frequent. Sleeping is still hit or miss but getting better. I will keep you and all of us on this list in my prayers.
Lisa

I am very sorry for your loss. I lost my husband to cancer 3 years ago, and found this online support group. Like you, it was my first time reaching out to an online forum. This is a great support group, we all understand what you are going through.
There really is no way to fully comprehend, or prepare for the death of a spouse. It is devastating and life altering beyond what anyone who hasn't experienced it can imagine. What you are going through is very common. I was scared, anxious, couldn't eat or sleep, and thought I would never learn to cope and live again. For me, what helped was temporarily going on medication, and joining a hospice support group. There is no timeline, or way to speed up the process, you just have to take it a day at a time, and have faith that it will eventually get easier. We all grieve in our own way, on our own timeline, but those of us further out can assure you that although you will always grieve your loss, you will eventually learn to live your life again.
I am sorry things are so hard with his daughter. Unfortunately, this too is not uncommon. Please hold off on making any big decisions right now. You are still very early in your grief and probably still in a state of shock.
We are all here for you. Please take care of yourself and reach out to those around you for support. People want to help, you just need to know it's okay to ask and let them know what you need.
Peace and strength to you, Lori

Thank you for the encouragement. Nobody knows except those who have walked the path before. Intellectually I know things will get better but in the midst of it I can't see the forest for the trees. It helps to hear it over and over again from those who know.

Thank you for sharing. My heart goes out to you!! I am so sorry for your sudden loss. Have you considered GriefShare? It helped me to meet other women who were going through the same emotions I was and it gave me the tools I needed to start the healing process. It’s a nationwide program and I encourage you to find one in your area. <3 You still sound like a very strong praying, journaling, and trusting in God woman to me. :) He will never leave you or forsake you. He promises those who mourn shall be comforted. Matthew 5:4 Hold onto his promises. A book that really comforted me on those nights when I couldn’t sleep was, “Come Away My Beloved.” It’s written as if God is speaking directly to you and only to you. <3 Continue to try to take one day at a time and know that you are not alone. I will be praying for you. Don’t be afraid to reach out to your pastor or a Christian counselor either if you need to. I did. May God keep you in his perfect will and peace. Big hug!

My heart goes out to you, this journey is difficult enough without the stress of family not supporting each other. My prayers for you and your husband's daughter.