Widows & Widowers Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have lost a husband, wife, or partner. Anything is open for discussion here, with the hope that we can focus on grief, bereavement, life after loss, and continuing on after a great loss.
Today was a bittersweet day. John has been gone nine months. I like many of you spend nights crying myself to sleep (or awake). So many great memories of my "main squeeze".
One of the things we would do is take kayak, canoe trips. We had fond memories of doing this on the Allegheny river. Today his sisters and I did a trip down the Allegheny. I know this is something you shouldn't do but we stopped in the middle of the river and sprinkled some of his ashes. Just a tiny bit.
Oh to have him in the palm of my hand. To imagine his smile, his smell, his touch. As the ashes hit the water I could imagine him as if he was still here. Once again I had to let him go. So painful.
it was a great trip. We saw two beautiful eagles. I'm home now to the place we made home. God I miss him.
In our lives and losing them brings a mixture of gratefulness at times mixed with the awful sadness of their being gone from us. I hope today is a good day for you