I lost my husband last month in a motorcycle accident in which myself and our 4 year old son were following behind him in our car on the way to church. He was 26, a minister in training and a middle school teacher. He was amazing. Every day is a struggle and I just wonder when anything will feel even close to normal. Nothing feels normal to do because it feels wrong to do it without him. I feel like I am just paused in that moment while everyone else’s life just continues to move forward. It’s like I am going through the motions of day to day life but at night I can’t fall asleep because I feel so sad thinking about him and then in the morning I don’t want to face another day without him. I am trying my best to be strong for our son because his dad was his absolute favorite person in the world, but as soon as he falls asleep I feel so full of grief. I guess I am just hoping for some kind of encouragement because right now I just feel alone. I am very close to my in laws and have been staying with them since it happens and while it’s nice to have their support, I know they are leaning on each other through their own grief of losing their son, while I don’t have my husband to lean on.
I am days away from a half year from losing my dear Tom. While I know from reading posts to not be surprised that it could takes years to get back on my feet, I am very discouraged right now that I don't seem to have made any progress at all.I am incredibly lonesome and have no clue as to why I am still on this earth.
by: Christina Rasmussen Original Post Link: LINK“Do whatever you have to, to get through the pain after I am gone.” my husband said to me a few months before he died. “Whatever it takes.” he said. “It doesn’t matter what it is you have to do, if it makes you feel better then do it.” I didn’t always follow his advice but it did help me feel less guilt when my...