I understand you completely. I too wanted a sign. I found a note he left to all of us. How we gave him the courage to keep fighting. I knew he had written it. But I didn't want to read it until one day when he was gone. I forgot about it till the day I came across it. And he left a note for my son. My son had written him a card years before for Father's day. He kept it in his drawer all these years. And then wrote a note on the back. How proud he is and how much he loves his son. Finding that nearly broke me in two!!

I actually had a visit form Lyn a few weeks back. Afterwards my grief and sadness left for a good long while. Then it has slowly creeped back in. I am praying that God will allow her to revisit. I was also left with the feeling she was needing to tell me something more.
Peace, TIm

Brian left me notes too. Written in various notebooks that I found. I read them and can't bring myself to read them again right now. I really want something now. Something from Heaven. Just to know that's he's okay and he loves me.

If you have faith and believe, you will.
Peace, Tim

Awwwwwwwww I am so sorry you are feeling so sad. It is 4 months for me and it hurts so bad every day. I too am waiting for a sign from Skip. I went back to church this Sunday as Skip and I talked about it for awhile so for him and me I went back on Sunday. It has helped me somewhat. I hate this feeling. I am here if you need to talk You can always call me if you need Carol-Ann

Tim, I long for that as well. I read a book by Patrick Mathews and actually felt hopeful.

Hi my name is Gail, I lost my sweetie on 6/14/2015. He passed in his sleep and I found him. He was 70. He wasn't sure if he believed in any thing after this life. So we worked out a code to give a sign to the other depending on who went first. We were married on my birthday. So I told him if there is something after this to give me not just red roses but also yellow. We told no one and hadn't talked about it for years. I told him it had to come from one of our three daughters, then I would know it was real.
I was a fixing a sprinkler in my front yard (on my birthday), my youngest daughter pulled in and got out of her car with a dozen yellow and red roses. She said she was at Costco and was getting ready to leave when she just had a feeling she needed to buy me some roses. She first bought red and white and had put them in the basket and was leaving and looked back and saw the yellow she said she just felt she needed to get them instead and went back. We both had a good cry and knew her Dad was there with us.
I have been coming to this sight since July and read all your post daily. Thanks to all you caring and loving people who have helped me through the hardest journey of my life.
I have had many other signs from my husband, as have our girls.
I'll post at another time. Happy Trails Gail.

Remember yesterday, Dream of tomorrow, but Live for today.

A year after my husband died, I found a note sitting in my bedroom by my jewelry box. Saying he wish he could just hold me once again, like when I was 16... I had redone my room, since his death, that was so weird, freaked me out. We had separate rooms, for 20 years,he never came in my room.

My husband, before his death, ordered stuff that showed up after his death. For himself. Sandee

Thanks Gail for sharing about the yellow roses.

That kind of gives me hope to her from her.

Darrell

meg keep us updated. Did you get the package? Mother's day is right around the corner. dying to know. hugs Arlene

it took me months, but sometime after 6 months I had 3 dreams, the last one, peaceful but so horrific. He and I were on the phone, and he was telliing me that he knows we are married, and still loves me, but he has to go, and he cant be with me anymore. It was so sad, it woke me up balling, but in the same respect it helped me have some peace. Sometimes when we are in deep grief, we do not even notice those subtle things that are sent from our loved ones, (sorry if I have upset someome of a different faith) I believe they are here, we just arent noticing those little things, as time goes on, surely you will get some sort of acknowledgment of his spirit still with you. They are always with us, in our hearts.. that is the most important place for them to be. Much love and big hugs carla

I went and got the package. And it was just a silly survey thing. Nothing like what I was hoping for. :( But I have hope!

this didn't happen to me but to an acquaintance/ friend (favorite cashier at our local supermarket). Her husband died a month before my John drowned but we (John & I) only knew of it a week or so before John's own death, when we questioned why we hadn't seen her. And she was never aware John drowned until months later when she returned to work from her leave of absence, since then we have become sisters in sorrow. Still maintain our isolation but never the less have the knowing bond of sorrow.

The day her husband died, she had kissed him goodbye late one morning (they were newlyweds - only been married a year), went to run some errands for her mom intending to return home in an hour, but not expecting to find him there, as he was scheduled to go to work himself. She returned, was surprised to see his car, went in & called for him, no answer. Went into the bedroom and found him slumped between the bed stand and the bed, dead from a killer heart attack or stroke (something that took him "before he hit the floor" she was told).

His body was taken to the coroner, as by law it must have, and all the other ceremonies (funeral, cremation, burial, what have you)were carried out. Life, sad as it was/ is, marches on.

About 6 months ago, I saw Adrienne at the market & she pulled me aside and said she needed to tell me something. She said she received a call from the Coroners Office asking her when she could come there and pick up an article that belonged to her husband. She replied, "what do you mean, I already have his belongings, it was just the tee shirt and shorts he was wearing when he was taken from the house, and I got those back from you already over a year ago", they said they had something else, but they couldn't give her any information (as it was sealed in an envelope and they were just relaying the message to her anyway). For the life of her she couldn't imagine what it was - his wallet wasn't sent with him, she didn't recall there was anything in any of his work out pants pockets, after all, he was getting ready to get in the shower the morning he died, to go to work.

Well she went to the Coroners office, retrieved the envelope, and in it found a picture of them on their first date after they had confirmed their new found love for each other!

Adrienne is not "religious" but is certainly been made to be more inquisitive about spirit, as we all do or become, especially after death, and this was just beyond anything she could explain. She was afraid to tell many - her therapist in particular - because she knew they would think her crazy. But she really couldn't explain how this picture came forward from the Coroner's office, months later. Neither could I; could just say 'spirit works in mysterious ways'

I'm also thinking maybe this was her husbands way, now only in spirit, of guiding her towards a less biased approach to "religion" or at least "spirit" and the eternal hereafter. And of course I am in awe, even while being a little envious.

It will be 3 years the 18th. I still think I should at least feel him near. I think it is so hard because I thought I would always feel him near.. it just unbelievably hurts all time