The calendar said one year, my heart and mind say yesterday. I can't even begin to tell you where that year went. The struggles are still here and the pain is still felt. I cry most days although there are days when I can discuss it with out bursting into the crazy widow.

I re live the events and the loss. Time changes nothing. I seen something I wanted to share.

"I am a griever,
That doesn't mean I have a disease
It means that I miss and love someone who has died
Let me grieve at my own pace,
My reality is forever changed
Do not judge me nor feel it is your obligation to me to "move on" or "get over it"
Getting over it is not an option. With time I will do my best to move forward one step in front of the other. They might be baby steps but it is better than none at all.
When I need you just be there".

My hurt and pain are real and my loss is forever part of me.