I understand your heart brokenness and devastation at losing your beloved husband whom you had finally found after so many years. The same happened to me. I had finally found the most wonderful man and we were married for 7 great years. Until he died of matastasized cancer. It makes you feel really lost. I am so sorry you lost him. Please know that the pain eventually lessens with time. It doesn't mean we forget them and are fine again, but the raw pain eases. I am at 18 months and realize I will never get over him leaving but am learning to accept the reality that he is not physically here. I have found I can talk to him and hear him now in my head. It took awhile. Most important thing you can do is take care of yourself, drink lots of water, eat and rest. Also it helped me to walk in the neighborhood as often as possible. Take care my dear, you are not alone.

I can absolutely understand why you feel devastated. I lost my beloved husband to cancer after 31 years. I am so grateful for the time that we did have together but yet I still feel that he went way too soon! I am so glad that you have a sense of peace knowing he is no longer suffering. My husband suffered so much that I was actually traumatized by the memories and had to speak with a counselor about it. I am just now starting to find that peace that comes from knowing he is no longer suffering. I am glad that you found this board and hope it helps you somewhat.

Sylvia

I am so sorry for you loss. It takes a while to get used to being a widow and everyone is different in their grieving. What one person feels and experiences is not the same but we all have a common denominator here the loss of our Spouse the other half of us. My second husband and I were together for 36 years we became as one person. I am trying to find the other half of myself still but since Life never stops it is pushing me reluctantly forward. Breathing deeply helps me and walking and Pray and feel loved as you were. Take small baby steps i pushed myself too fast and had a total meltdown..Slow down allow yourself time to heal (( Hugs)

We each grieve in our own way & in our own time...
It was 39 years of marriage for me, 3 months to retirement.
Unanswered questions, unrealized dreams...

Yes, I agree, to know the suffering is over. Thank you Lord.
That is something positive, it helps to find something good in our journey.
It's a new you, it's a different life...
Baby steps...
Do what you can, take the time YOU need
Ups, downs,
Challenges
We are survivors
Keep the faith
jdp

So few people out there have ever experienced true love. In many ways, we are the fortunate ones because we know what love is. People today are afraid of loving because they fear they might be hurt if they completely open up their heart to another. But had we done that, look at what we would have missed out on. Doesn't matter if you had a day or a lifetime. When you experience true love, there is nothing better that this life has to offer. And that is why it hurts so bad. Yeah, it was worth it to me. I'd gladly go through it again if I had her back. But she won't be back. And so I am left doing what I can to figure out life without her. But when you think you are ready, get ready for a rude awakening because I'm not sure any of us are ever really ready. Time, time and more time. It is the only path toward healing our broken hearts, which is the root of our grief. ~~~ Scottie

Scottie, that is so true. The path to healing our broken hearts isn't finite, it is a process, like "the shining light that shines more and more unto the perfect day."

I met my husband 8 years ago. We married 11/5/16 on 11/30/16 we found out he had Stage IV squamous cell carcinoma with mets to lymph nodes, lungs and chest. He passed away January 31, 2017. I'm feeling pretty numb these past few days. Seems to be getting harder not easier. I to have a sense of peace knowing that he did not suffer long and also that I was blessed to have him in my life even if only for a short time.

Wow! So many of us with similar stories. We hear so much about the advances in cancer treatment, yet here we are! My soulmate was also my second chance at love. We married in December of 2010 after dating 2 years. He was diagnosed with stage IV cancer in September of 2016 and died less than 3 months later - 12/17/16. I'm still reeling from the shock of how it happened so fast. He seemed so healthy and we were so incredibly in love and so happy! We never argued, we a,ways laughed, we loved life, family, music, food, travel and owned a business. We were together almost 24/7 and loved every minute of it!
It was so hard to see such a strong and proud man hurt so much, lose so much weight and die like he did. I too am thankful he didn't suffer long, but also hate that we had such a short life together. It took so long to find him and it hurts so much to have lost him.
How any of us make it thru this, I do not know. I want to wake up from this nightmare. Of course that would require that I sleep, which I haven't figured out yet.
Sorry to ramble. I just can sooooo relate. Hoping some day I'm strong enough to offer positive advice versus simply sharing my sadness and struggles.
Love prayers and hugs. One day at a time....