John wasn't perfect. he had flaws like anyone...some big ones.some that got him into trouble. but he always tried...tried to be better for me and the kids. he was the most amazing husband. he did everything for me and our son. he would throw away my old clothes to force me to go shopping. he would rub my feet after I got home from work. he blew kisses at me every time I walked by him. in the car he always held my hand and at night he would always ask which way I was going to lay so he could snuggle with me. when I tell ppl things like this they are always surprised. he was a beautiful man. but he was covered in tattoos and came off tough. but with me and our son he was a teddy bear. he always called me sexy moma. and in the winter our biggest argument was always the same...on nights that it snowed he would want me to take a taxi home from work and I would always insist on driving. I miss him so badly. I miss everything about him and the way he loved. me. I would do anything to bring him back for me and our sons. he took such good care of me. he showed me what true love really is...