I find it so sad that this site has become almost non-existent. When my husband died suddenly 4 years ago, I came here because I had no real support system in my life to help me. I just read all the posts for several months before I finally joined in. There were so many members back then and the conversations were always going. Any time someone posted, there were immediately replies. Many members were here every day, so we all got to know each other. I was helped so much in those early days. Any time I reached out, I received replies from those who had been here longer, and also from those who were in my same situation. We were like a family. Then the format changed, and most people just left. It affected me greatly. I had nowhere else to go. I fell into a deep depression that is still with me today. I've found another online group, but it is not the same.
I am not doing well. I try, but I suffer so much with depression and anxiety it makes it hard to move forward. I take medication and see a counselor, but I don't get out like I should. I live in a small, rural community where nothing is offered for widows. My friends and family have moved on, as they should have. But I am stuck. I was a strong, independent woman living a good life. I could take on any problem and find a solution. I never realized how much of my strength came from my husband. I was much better in the first years than I am now. I'm rambling. I just had to post one more time here at my old "home". Oh, how I miss the real Daily Strength.
Warm hugs to anyone who reads this,
Hello all. I just sold our home of 33 years today and I am feeling deflated, sad and so alone. Never did I ever believe I would have to do this without my husband. It feels like another death and I have to grieve for it as well. It has been almost 5 years since his passing and yet it still seems so close in the rear view mirror. I just needed to say hello and feel a part of something once again...
I lost my beautiful wife on 16 September 2019. She was my everything, wife, mother to our 5 children and 3 grand-kids (1 of our 5 kids died very suddenly in 2017 and our son-in-law committed suicide in April of 2019). I feel very alone in this, feel like I am withour direction and at the mercy of whatever life throws at me. I am trying to get back into the work force because for the last 10 years...