I understand how you feel. I lost my loving, wonderful, husband 4 months ago from brain cancer at age 46. He was my life, after 22 years together. I still have bad days, but I try to move forward. Cry, throw things, scream, all are good things to do to purge.

Hugs to you and I feel your pain. My hubby died at 50 years old on Feb 2016, unexpected and we were married 29 years. We were having so much fun, grandkids, good life and all of a sudden my dreams are shattered. I do not like being a widow- it is terrible. I am just grateful that he did not suffer, god was merciful. My hubby was my number 1 fun and I need him so much now, everything that is going on right now but I have my children and memories. I will pray for you and your family and everyone on this site that has lost so much. Take care.

There is no pain deeper then the ripping apart of your soul from the loss of your one true love. I am deeply sorry for your loss .
May I please suggest that you hold your son close . He is half of your wife, so you haven't loss her totally even though you feel that way now. The total anguish is something so difficult to deal with, however, somehow you move forward by just existing knowing that someday you'll be living again . Your wife would want you to be there for each other. Please, please do the best you can to take care of yourselves. God has you here for a reason. There is a purpose for your life . Remember, your wives love for you has not died anymore then your love for her has. By the grace of God we will all be with our love ones again someday. AuntB

After 21 years I lost my wife without warning. Came home from work and found her. Evedything you wrote I went thru and still do after a littke over a year. She was 52 still young. We had those same plans. My world stopped turning that day. I can tell you it will get better. But only after going thru some hellachous days. Just take it a day at a time. Right now tomorrow doesnt exist. So dont think about it. Just the moment your in. It is way to much to deal with all your in. It is way too nuch to worry about at one time.
Coming to this site was the second best thing I did. The first was taking it to God. If you are a man of faith. Lean on it heavily. Just take of yourself and you kids for now. Stay strong. Hold on it will get there. The pain really cant be described. Please get as much rest as you can. And dont let anyone tell you when its time to move on. You are the only one who can gage that.
Take care.
Peace. Tim

I understand completely how you feel I lost my husband just 2 weeks ago after 18 years of marriage and 4 Childern due to a massive heart attack at the age of 38 the pain you are feeling I feel the same way he was my life my everything keep your son close and reach out to others for help whenever needed do not feel bad for asking I have always done things on my own we my husband and now find my self asking to help things to get easier but there will be days you want to give up just remember that's not what your wife would have wanted be strong for your son and he will be string for you

So much changed in such a short time.
It isn't easy but do NOT give up on yourself.
We each have mountains to climb, challenges to face. No, it is not easy as we are the ones remaining to pick up the pieces. You will cope as the days progress because it's important to accomplish some tasks. Do what you can, give yourself time....
It's little steps....
Give yourself credit where credit is due...
jdp

I hope that you have found out already from joining this group that we are ALL in this together. I lost my husband 4 months ago at the age of 29 and the admitting to the term widow is devastating. I too tried CPR on my husband but the damage was too much to save him. We are here if you need to talk. Believe me when I say, you can help us as much as we can help you through these hard times.
Amanda

I am so very sorry for your loss. Welcome to our group and I hope that you find some comfort/hope/strength here. We are here for you.

Sylvia

chbar001, I am so sorry for the pain I know that you are feeling. I lost my husband in November of 2016. He passed in his sleep right next to me in bed. I actually feel a little better now, meaning I still cry and miss him so badly, but the fog and pain has eased a little. I am told we have to just let ourselves feel what we feel for as long as we feel it. I am glad you have your son to hug and give your love to. He needs you so much. Just take it one minute at a time. I pray several times a day to thank God and ask for his help dealing with my pain, and especially when a bad attack of grief comes over me. It helps. I write letters to him and write in a journal and read that to him as well. It helps. I talk to him and I believe he hears me. After a couple of months I signed up and attended a grief support group. Just one meeting so far, but if nothing else I am making friends that understand what I feel and do not judge or tell me to get over it. I will never get over it and neither will you frankly, but you will feel better. Just focus on today and look forward to that time, and come here as often as you like to talk. God bless.

Sorry for your loss, I lost my husband of 35 years as well. There really are no words that anyone can say that will comfort you at this heartbreaking time. Praying and staying in faith helps. I hope you and your son are a comfort to one another. Since he did find his mother, he needs your strength. Sending prayers.

I never know what to say,but I want to say something. If I knew the exact words to give you comfort,I would share them,but I don't . I pray,I cry,I scream and I laugh. I know that may sound ridiculous,but so much of who we were as a couple (May will be one year without my husband) was surrounded in laughter. We had "those moments" so full of laughter,that when I think of them,and I do often,instead of tears I have smiles. It feels good to smile. I'm thankful for happy memories,sad memories, side splitting-tears running down my face-pee my pants kinda memories. I am truly saddened for your loss. When you need to talk,and you will,know you are never alone.

I'm sorry for your loss I lost my husband eight months ago and it still feels like yesterday. He was diabetic , I miss him so much. I feel so alone without him. I just do one day at a time because I can't think too much in the future. Because it feels like I have no future.