So sorry to hear this. I lost my partner 2.5 months ago (he was 55). It seems like just yesterday and an eternity at the same time. I find the busier I am, the easier it is to deal with every day life. It's the alone time that kills me. I wear his PJs, his T-shirts, belt, rings, smell his scrungy every night before I go to bed - it all gives me tiny bit of comfort. I just focus on getting through each hour and hope that some day the pain eases enough that the knife in my heart goes away. Feel free to vent to me anytime.

I just opened my computer and came here to read the daily affirmation. Your letter appeared immediately and I feel compelled to offer my sympathy. I truly am so sorry for your loss. We have all lost a loved one and do know how it feels. Like you, I needed to keep my husband close. Although It's been some time I still keep his favorite shirt in my closet.
My only advice is for you to take it very slowly. They call it baby steps. It's comforting for you to know you have good people there for you. Wishing you strength and peace. Dolores

I am so very sorry for your loss. I pray that God would be with you. You are probably in shock right now. 2 months ago today my husband passed away. The early shock was very hard. My mind was all over the place. I wandered around the house aimlessly. I had bouts of crying for hours.

It is good to have his things to touch and smell. It does help. I hug my husband’s pillow and inhale deeply....hoping to smell his essence.

Go slowly and don’t make any big decisions right away. It is good to have someone to talk to. Coming to this site helps a lot. Reading what others say and writing your own thoughts will help too. We are all here for the same reason....we have lost a husband, wife or significant other. We care and understand what you are feeling. Hugs......Linda

Just want to say thank you guys. I'm trying to be strong, have plenty of support, but this helps. The people around me are wonderful, but they have not experienced losing their spouse. It's something different than the other deaths I've experienced in my life. But thank you

I am sorry for your loss. It has been 4 months for me and although I may not cry all day like I did in the beginning it is still hard. Linda is so right coming to this site to read what others write does help. Everyone seems to want to help each other along. Thinking of you and everyone else tonight who have lost a loved one. Amy

It IS too soon. You must try to get more time off. I can't imagine going back to work so soon. You are in need of EXTREME SELF CARE. After My husband died (4/1/2017) even the butcher couldn't ask me how I wanted my meat packed without setting off the tears. You need to be on your own healing schedule, not corporate's. However, I understand the necessity of working. My husband was seriously injured while at work on a construction site and passed away a day later. It was unexpected. I feel as though he was ripped from me. But, as sad as I am, I am also angry. It took a few weeks to get there. But, when I get a bee in my bonnet there's no stopping me. You will encounter a lot of emotions. You are entitled to feel however you feel, when you feel it. But, I think you should try to give yourself more time. Unless you have AMAZINGLY understanding co-workers. God bless you. :)

Unfortunately, life isn't a movie or some fantasy world where we can just take off of work and go backpacking across the shores of Italy, meditating and trying to find ourselves, as we look out over the open waters. The majority of us are not millionaires and are forced to return to work after a very short time since the passing of our loved ones. It can be beneficial though, as I have found that it helps me focus and return to a normal routine. It's after I get off of work, that the reality slaps me like a freight train doing 180-mph. But keep your head up and you will pull through this.

Missing him is a feeling we all have. It needs to be recognized when you feel it. Recognizing that helps you to also have some better days. I'm sorry you lost someone so young. His life was stolen too early, but there is no time we can accept the loss. I wrote my husband letters about my feelings and the experience of the day. I talked to him often and I believe he heard me. One day at a time is all we can do, and sometimes it's moment by moment.
Welcome to the group. Visiting here has given me a sense of understanding and being with those who understand is priceless. Sharon