My husband died suddenly in October. He was only 58. I had the same problem...couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, felt sick to my stomach all the time, and had a general ache all over. It was miserable and painful. I don't remember ever feeling so much pain. After about a month, I noticed the general ache was gone and after two months I could actually keep food down. Progress through grief is painfully slow but it happens. Be kind to yourself. Give yourself grace to heal. I still cry very easily and miss him terribly but I can see that I am slowly making progress. Keep the faith :)

I am so sorry for your loss. Day by day or moment by moment is the way many of us have survived this far. I could not even yet cry at only 3 weeks. That didn't come for about a month. Initially I couldn't feel anything and slowly that unraveled. I was so afraid of the pain I did everything I could to keep busy and avoid being alone. The future was empty for me. So I just focused on each moment and told myself, sometimes out loud, that I was ok. It was good to find this site and know others had survived. Things got better with time, not immediately but after a while I'd realize I had an ok day and then maybe two in a row. At 2 years and 3 months most days are ok. I miss my husband everyday but I am surviving and living my life. Try to take care of yourself and possibly look for a local grief or bereavement group. It can help. Marybeth

Sorry to hear. All on this site are in a similar circumstance. Apparently the pain lessens day by day or month by month. I'm at nearly 11 weeks and still waiting.

Sorry for your loss. I am still trying to figure out after a year how to get past merely "existing." It seems like the pain does subside just a little with time, but not the loneliness and emptiness, if that makes sense.