I'm in the same boat. It cuts like a knife.

Go ahead & let it out, nothing to feel sorry about.

Understand how you can feel like you're supposed to hide all the feelings, at least you won't find any who don't understand that here.

Vent all you want, hope it helps a little.

Don't be sorry hon. I feel the same, it really sucks. We are here for each other to talk, never be sorry to bounce your feelings off of us, we can truly relate. I too feel like you do. I just had to drop wife's car off at dealership for some work and stopped for breakfast alone, so I am sitting here with tears in my eyes waiting for the food.

what is really wrong with pity pie and sorry soup?
nothing.

Don't ever feel sorry for how you feel.. In time, your sorrow will not be so intense,, and maybe it will be. You are so fresh in your grief, your ok.... don't be so hard on yourself. much love and big hugs carla

I have cried a river of tears over the past four months with no end in sight at present.

I was always taught that " grown men don't cry. ". Well, that is BS, I am a grown man and can't stop crying..

Yes, I lost my wife. But, at the same time, I lost my best friend. I also lost the one person on this planet that would forgive me regardless of anything I did or said. I also lost access to a non-stop flow of unconditional love. I lost the one person that would at times offer gentle advice to me on this or that but would never criticize me or sit in judgment of me. I also lost the one person, the only person, that shared with me precise desires for the same foods, same movies, same music, same political views, same spiritual views and every other damn thing in life.

We were one identity by choice because we both wanted it that way. We were Darrell and Debbie. Never apart. Always together
because we wanted it that way.

So, a river of tears flows relentlessly for Darrell and Debbie as the entire identify is gone.

Anyone that cannot understand that has not been in love. Truly in love. Hopelessly head over heels in love.

So, it is OK for a grown man to cry and it is OK for you to cry. It is the only thing that dulls the pain even if it is only for a few minutes at a time.

Tonight was the first night I put on the fireplace, settled down with a glass of wine and just felt the loneliness, it engulfed metomorrow I wake up, go thru the motions and repeat the same processI am going on nine months and it still hits me in waves. I am still on the roller coaster ride. Decided I do not want to be out NYE watching other couples enjoying themselves. I can't imagine I would ever have in my lifetime what I had,,,unconditional love and respect. Mutual admiration. Married for 25 years and still loved the romance..

No need to be sorry about grieving. Hearing about happy plans is rough and it can bring up sad memories. Tears are allowed.

My crying has lessened, but when it does happen, it's a big one.

I remember going to the mall and sitting down in one of the chairs while I was waiting for my daughter to finish up in a store. I started people watching. Couples walking and holding hands, families giggling. I don't think I can begin to describe the ache/pain.

You are allowed to feel anyway at anytime. Your feelings are yours and are never wrong.

I was so lonely, too.
Does your town have a women's club? Mine is called a Newcomer's Club but they welcome long time residents, too. It was hard at first but now I play bridge every Tuesday and belong to a book club. Baby steps. Everyone was so nice and the community did help me.

Feelings aren't RIGHT or WRONG they just are!

To all you manly men......I'm so sorry that you're feeling so lost without your woman!

To all the girly girls.......I so sorry that you're feeling so lost without your man!

I don't think that Morey would have done very well if it were me who was gone. Although he had a very adventurous spirit in him, he would have been so much more lost and undone!!!

Not that I'm so well put together, I just know what I do and do not want and I'm not too shy to express it! Morey said I could be a real pain in the !@# when I wanted to be!

Knittings, this is the worst hurt of your life.....it sucks!!!!

Roz

This is the most dreadful of times. yes it hurts like hell and I am sorry to meet you on this road. I cannot tell you when you will feel better my dear, I can only hope that moments of respite will begin to come oftener. I am crying beside you so hold my hand our tears will blend as they fall. All I can say is: I KNOW xxxxx

I am not lonely for human contact I am just so terribly lonely for my Amy. If I can't be with her for right now I'd rather be alone. That may change but for now I just go through the motions of my mundane life and just hope time will heal. Don't be sorry for your feelings we are all birds of a feather or else we wouldn't be here. Peace to you ~Pete

This is such a lonely life without our loved ones! We all have felt what you are feeling. I for one cannot seem to wrap my mind around the end of what we had. Hugs and Love to all, Michele

So understand Knittings. I have no family in my area so living alone very difficult. This year though my family here from out of state. Five people here for 11 days is a huge adjustment for me. I keep thinking the family will be gone soon and back to my alone existence. My husband would have been better at this... I joined a support group, a meet up group, some classes, volunteer, etc., two clubs so it helps to meet different people. We all understand that special love now gone.