The grief is hard and dealing with it while caring for a young child complicates our emotions. I would talk to a professional about dealing with the emotions and your child. For me, I would feel better knowing that we can be safely be sad in front of him /her. Sharon

This resonates with me a lot. I am also about to move out of the house that I shared with my husband, the place that he died. I am so relieved to be able to move yet leaving this house is very emotional.

I too have a young child. Mine is 7. Its really hard to mom sometimes. I want to just fall apart but I can't. There are times when I don't really have a choice so I am lucky then to have grandmas who can take her for me. Or I am lucky when bedtime rolls around so I can just collapse. That said, I am not hiding my emotions around her. I feel that showing her how I am feeling them and coping with them may help her in the long run.

Hugs!

sorry you are going through this. Its been approx. 7 months for me too. The stress of moving is big. I'm staying in my house since its paid for. I haven't even began the cleaning out the drawers, getting rid of the clothes or even the medical equipment yet. I told myself over and over again wait one year. I haven't sold anything either. I have a lot of construction equipment that is losing value every day it sits, but I don't care. No fire sale here. Counseling is helping me. Wish I could help more but remember the moving part is a big adjustment. hugs Arlene

I too am in the process off moving from our home, where my sweet husband died at as well. I will say I was told by a close friend to take pictures of everything.. from the inside out, and outside in. So I have done that. i know it will emotional. Its ok that your little one sees you vulnerable, and cry. It's natural to feel the way you do. I know I will be there in a few months too. I am praying for you. Allow yourself those emotions, and be gentle on yourself. You dont always have to be strong for anyone, you only have to love, and it just means your love was so great for him, and he knows how much you love him. Much love and big hug carla

Gregsbaby,

I have to force my self to do things too. If the world would let me, I'd like to stay in bed for a year or two. I don't have children at home, so it probably wouldn't be that difficult for me to make myself into a hermit. However, I know that if I did just suddenly quit my job and stayed in all the time- over the course of time it would only make me feel worse.

I kept my two and a half year old granddaughter this past weekend. I love her so- but being with her hurts a smidgen too, because her grandfather is not getting to watch her grow up and she is only going to know how wonderful he was and how she had him wrapped around her little finger second hand. I catch myself crying silent tears in front of her on a fairly regular basis. Sometimes she notices, other times she doesn't. When she does notice she'll get really close to me and hug me, or tilt her head and quizically look at me and I'll wipe my tears away and say it's alright. She'll then return to whatever she was doing- and doesn't seem to be bothered by it after the reassurance.

I think that even very small children can sense grief. But, I don't think they are overwhelmed by it as long as they are reassured that we are going to be okay and that we are not sad because of something they have done.

I think a lot of what you are experiencing is within the "Normal Range," of someone facing your difficult loss. Don't beat yourself up about it. As long as you continue to force yourself to do what needs to be done, you are overcoming this beast called grief. Hang in there!

I understand about the grief wave. I had one hit a couple of weekends ago and could not work for two days straight. It slowly started to ease up and tis week it is a dull roll, but I know waiting to hit again. Take care of yourself and let the tears flow as needed. Just remember we will all see them again some day.
Peace, Tim

Just hit the 5 month mark and moved into a new place 3 weeks ago. Like everything else the thought of this horrible reality packing up his clothes , closing his accts, shutting off his phone and now moving from our home all those things just thinking about it was very emotional and but necessary for me to try to get along with my new normal. The actual acts were not as painful as the anticipation but regardless I am just trudging because I know in my heart my beloved would want me to stay among the living... I still miss him terribly and will be forever heartbroken but I am making my new my own girlie and all pink and flowey ...lol which if u know what I mean
my husband was a mans man and never fond of those things...somehow it empowers me to know I made it thus far through the many tears and endless nights... Proud of your courage to move....I just keep praying my butt off for relief through this unchosen journey...

You guys are awesome :) Thanks so much for the support and hugs! I had a better day today, actually took the baby and I for a walk, well for him a stroller walk lol!

Sharon I do see a professional who's absolutely amazing!

BrittFlowerFord yes I totally understand. I have absolutely have no dark colors in my new place. It's all about bright colors as I navigate through all this.

Congrats for getting out. And thanks for sharing with us what was going on. There are a number of others here who lost their love through a traumatic event, and some have been diagnosed with ptsd, and I certainly can understand how that happens. I think you made a really wise decision to move away from where you were. Your instincts were right, and sometimes, that is all we have to go on. We've got to have peace in our home -- without it our healing is delayed, Enjoy this time with your toddler, draw from his abundant love, cherish each moment as you watch him grow and love his mommy more and more each day. ~~~ Scottie

I actually moved WHILE my husnand was hospitalised, while he was recovering from being hit by a car. So, 6 months later, when he passed it was SO MUCH easier to continue on living because his ghost wasn't around every corner. Having said that, there is a very large corner of a room, packed from floor to ceiling with his things, still in the moving boxes. I need to do something about it, but I keep finding excuses! Over a year now, since he's been gone.