I lost my husband of 43 years 8 months ago and I just can't seem to figure out how to go on. It was bad when we lost our son and then our daughter but my husband was always there by my side. This is so much worse. Now I have nobody to turn to, talk to or hold me when I cry. I just don't know how to get my life back on track. I know I need to get out of the house and start doing things but I just can't seem to force myself to do it. It's basically to work and back but at least I have work to look forward to. It's sad when you know what you need to do to try to heal but you just can't do it. I wonder if I will ever be able to figure this out and be able to have some sort or normalcy in my life again.
I never noticed before that the whole world is full of happy couples. Until my husband died. Sigh. Everywhere I go, there seems to be happiness, couples kissing, saying sweet things to one another. Families enjoying time together. I feel so foreign....like an alien that just dropped from the sky. My sadness is overwhelming. Sometimes I feel invisible.....like I am slowly fading away.
I lost my husband Sept 8, 2017 to 6 years of fighting cancer. 26 years of marriage. 2 months later (Nov 3) was our 27 wedding anniversary. In 3 months my life has went from having a wonderful family with him, 3 children and 3 grandchildren to me hatein everything. I cry, can’t breath and don’t want to be around anyone including my kids. I have pushed them away to the point we haven’t...