Got a question for everybody. Background first. My wife of 15 years died in January of this year, so it has been the year of firsts. Well the first holidays are coming. My grief counselor said that it was important to keep up traditions that meant something to us. I have been trying to do that, but today was the hardest day I have had in months. I went Christmas shopping for my 5 yr old. Got him his first real Tonka truck, lol. That about killed me. I think this Christmas shopping is going to be the death of me. What was the hardest thing you did the first year?
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