Widows & Widowers Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have lost a husband, wife, or partner. Anything is open for discussion here, with the hope that we can focus on grief, bereavement, life after loss, and continuing on after a great loss.

Are you talking about something like this?
https://www.dailystrength.org/group/widows-widowers/discussion/no-one-tells-you-this-about-loss-so-i-will
The word I'm thinking is indifferent. There doesn't seem to be much meaning going one way or the other. And I'm not particularly depressed.